BARBARA BUCK: “Hiding The Wounded Healer”

Suffering can appear in our lives with little warning. It startles us out of complacency. One day we are swimming with the tide, just breezing through life, then wham! Disease and discord hit us when we aren’t looking. Suddenly our nice dip in the ocean becomes a terrifying race from the sharks that we had no idea were right below the surface.

Hardship in whatever form it manifests, can cause us to lose faith that life is on our side. It can render us incapable of trusting the ebb and flow of reality as we understand it.

When I was diagnosed with a chronic disease, I was utterly blindsided. I am a healing practitioner, so in the beginning stages of being sick I had faith that I would be more than capable of handling the issue and moving on with my life. I had multiple tools to help me.

I did all the work, taking a mind/body/spirit approach to the disease, but instead of getting better, I got worse. I did everything that I knew how to do as a healing practitioner, but all my knowledge was useless in the face of my wretched suffering.

I stopped trusting the process and began to believe that I must have done something horribly wrong to deserve the physical and emotional trauma that I was experiencing.

To top it all off, I had a belief that no one would want to see a healer with a chronic disease. How could anyone put their faith in me to help them, if I couldn’t even heal myself? A sick healer is a paradox.

I spent a good deal of time stoically putting on my best game face while seeking help from other practitioners behind closed doors. Everyone that I knew had plenty of advice to give me, from why I got sick to what might help me get better.

Conventional medicine, naturopaths, homeopaths, nutritionists, spiritual counselors, acupuncturists, biofeedback therapists, energy healers of all different types; you name it, I tried it. I stopped trusting the healthcare industry to give me answers, but the worst part about it all is that I stopped trusting my ability to help myself.

Suffering makes us feel weak, and in that weakness we become vulnerable. It’s a terrifying experience to recognize that no matter what we’ve been taught to believe, there are some things we don’t have control over. Sometimes when we allow ourselves to step into our vulnerability, we can feel like victims, victims to our bodies, our thoughts, our creative process that’s gone awry, to God, to the Universe, to genetics.

I have vacillated back and forth between all of these things. I blamed my ancestors, the environment, but mostly I held myself accountable for this disease. I have a firmly held belief that I am a co-creator of my reality, so clearly I must have made this happen.

I played the self-blame game very well. I decided that I can’t be trusted to care for myself when I am in this open, susceptible state. The Universe can’t be trusted either because it certainly didn’t have my back and stop me from creating this horrible mistake.

It didn’t even give me fair warning.

When we are raw and wounded, the first thing we throw out of the window is usually trust. The most natural reaction to our loss of faith is to wrap ourselves in a protective shell because we are afraid of what might come next. The world no longer feels safe.

When we become ill, whether it’s emotionally, spiritually, or physically, we tend to try to keep the world at a comfortable distance. Instead of stepping into our vulnerability, we hide it under the guise of courage and dignity.

Society rewards stoicism with praise. If we see a cancer patient, we say “Isn’t she brave? She never complains about the pain she’s in. She just keeps fighting. It’s amazing!” Very rarely do we acknowledge it when someone courageously embraces their vulnerability by taking a step into the darkness of their condition and seeing what gifts lie within the murky depths.

When we voice our fears or expose our vulnerability, it can frighten our loved ones. It makes people uncomfortable when they can see our wounds. It makes them remember their mortality and their own ability to suffer.

We often respond to this behavior by hiding behind a courageous mask, when the truth is that it makes us feel guilt, anger, and shame.

It’s time for us as healers to take that mask off. It is impossible to heal if we don’t allow the shadows of our creation to surface for healing, or try to hide them. Ignoring them is no longer an option.

 

Barbara Buck is a Foundational Reconnective Healing Practitioner, writer, and teacher. For more information, please visit her website at http://www.barbarabuck.org

 

~via We Are the Dreamwalkers

ERIC RAINES: “What Does It Mean to Raise Your Vibration?”

“Your natural state is incredibly resonant and strong, constantly rising upwards, but the damage and traumas of the past are literally like sandbags in a hot air balloon. As you try to rise up, they become more obvious and in your face. It does not mean they are getting worse, it means they are coming up to the surface to be cleared and we cannot clear anything without being aware of it. It is a natural process that will become more intense if you do not release the pain from the past and turn it into experience and understanding.”

~Eric Raines

 

What does it mean to raise your vibration?
As Humanity stretches further into the energies of Ascension, many are wondering what can they do personally to evolve themselves and to speed up the external process.

I find one of the easiest ways to understand low and high vibratory densities is to use a metaphor, simply because as above so below.

When we look at “high vibration” and “low vibration”, we have to recognize that they are states of being…it is describing a property.

Emotions that feel good inside of the body generally have a much higher vibration than emotions that do not feel good inside of the body.

When you feel excitement, Joy or unconditional love, there’s a rising, swelling feeling that makes you smile, laugh and feel warm and pleasant.

When you feel sadness, anger or guilt, there is a heavy solid feeling, almost as if something is taking up space that’s not supposed to be there. More often than not this is accompanied by a frown, scowl and feeling separate and withdrawn.

The body language under the surface already understands exactly what high vibration and low vibration is. We can feel it. It is a very obvious sensation, either light and clean or heavy and uncomfortable…which you can follow through internal focus into the sensations directly inside of the body… There is always a sensation accompanying the emotion.

Now that we have the initial detection broken down, our metaphor is easily understood.

Low vibratory Energies are very similar to heavy, dense and hard materials. High vibratory emotions are very similar to plasma and gas.

Inside of the universe that is generally liquid and gaseous, heavy, stuck material can literally drag downward, meaning if you are in a naturally High vibratory state and you allow yourself to act emotionally unintelligently, you can literally create heavy energy that pulls your vibratory state down into the lower fields.

In the same understanding, we can see traumas from the past as nothing more than frozen bits of time hidden in the body that are portals to those low vibratory emotions.

One of the easiest ways to raise your vibration, is to simply go into all the traumas that you are carrying with you from the past, forgive and release the heavy material by transmuting them into high vibratory emotions such as unconditional love and joy.

Your natural state is incredibly resonant and strong, constantly rising upwards, but the damage and traumas of the past are literally like sandbags in a hot air balloon. As you try to rise up, they become more obvious and in your face.

It does not mean they are getting worse, it means they are coming up to the surface to be cleared and we cannot clear anything without being aware of it. It is a natural process that will become more intense if you do not release the pain from the past and turn it into experience and understanding.

The parasitic construct is extremely heavy, dense and dark. If you have ever tried to grab a fistful of water, you will understand exactly why they need you traumatized and in lower emotions.

If you are extremely high vibration, it is like they are trying to capture the air with a net. They stop existing in your reality.

Start reverse engineering all of it. Stay aware of sensation and who you want to be.

As you become more luminous, more powerfully intense, you begin to shine this vibratory resonance to all of humanity.

This is why we are here.

These programs are Generations in the making. The power of being inside of the human consciousness, right here, right now is that we can break these tens of thousands year old Cycles literally in minutes.

As we break the prisons of our own making, we take back our individual minds, our souls and our bodies. Enough of us do this, and take back our planet.

You are a spark of the infinite Creator. Embody it.

 

~via Unleashing Natural Humanity

LISA RENEE (Time Shift Blog): “Unpleasant Truths”

Dear Ascending Family,

There are stages of awakening when we undergo the uncovering of deceit, lies and manipulation, in order to uncover the truth. We may begin to see the complex gaslighting tactics that were covering up true and accurate facts to appear as something it’s not. When a person finally awakens to see the true facts that were hidden beneath a web of lies and deceptions, and they realize these deceptions are being perpetrated to manipulate and control them, they can suddenly react with intense and raw emotions of anger, grief and sadness. Great feelings of betrayal may arise, and are the next stage of the Controller set up, as these situations are intentionally designed in the collective consciousness to harm our hearts, damaging our trust with others.

As the crack of light appears in the center of the dark shadow for some in the collective consciousness, as the inner light turns on they can see more that was hidden in the dark room that they did not see before. When people can see this darkness moving in the shadows, there is a scrambling to make sense of it and verify what it really is, during the realization of the great manipulation or deception. Maybe it is the fact they had been deceitfully used by another, or abused in ways they did not fully understand previously. No one feels good being used and manipulated, it is a tactic of the dark force imposters to gain control over others. This event can also open another octave of light to illuminate our inner vision to see what had been hidden in the dark closet or held in situations that maybe had been deeply denied as a truth, with the people involved in those circumstances. Or simply the complex subconscious contents in these events or situations had just remained unseen and unknown to our current awareness, and after many years and much effort expended, we discover that our energy was being directed for unsavory or unethical purposes.

Naturally as a consequence, as conscious people we may ask, what is our responsibility to this moment? What is my moral or spiritual obligation to be in the face of such awkward and challenging circumstances where this deep revelation of deception, manipulation, and intended harm towards the broken or innocent ones, people I know — what is the best course of action? What is in my power to do and what is not? For many people that still think with 3D thoughtforms, the first reaction will be to take aggressive or purposeful action against the deceiver, manipulator, or situation that has been used to take advantage over others.

Yet, taking outward aggressive actions are generally the least beneficial thing one can do in these moments, the inner strength is built upon being able to compassionately witness and be willing to see the entire truth as it is, to integrate the information into your knowledge base, and to remain still and able to observe yet more.

In these cases, wisdom is very hard earned, there is a high art in the skill of true knowing in when to take action, and when to hold space in non-action and continue to gather intelligence.

Many times the hard truth is that you will come to know the very people that were being abused or manipulated refuse to acknowledge what is actually happening in the form of harm or deception. They may seek to stay asleep in their astral mirror of delusion, as they are unwillingly to change or take responsibility for any of the realizations that are surfacing. Many times when you try to relay this truth they will fight back with hostile reactions, shutting down any further dialogue or potentially verbally attacking the messenger. When we can see this overview, and it’s very common, it can feel painful, confusing and hard to reconcile and navigate conflicts that involve other people. All we can be responsible for is our own personal conduct and behavior, we cannot exert control over anyone else or change anyone’s thinking or belief systems. If a person refuses to acknowledge the existence of the darkness or cannot recognize the evil being committed in a methodical agenda to destroy the human race, it does not mean those things do not exist, it is the denial of the truth which continues to feed these same seeds of deception and harm.

There is an elevation of this deeper realization occurring in the collective consciousness that is present in the environment and field. This is being observed as a reflection of the challenging stages of processing collective anger and grief during the planetary Dark Night of the Soul.

Misplaced Trust and Usurped Intent

One of the biggest questions awakening people are asking themselves is how we feel when we wake up one day and we deeply realize that we had been completely deceived and used in some way, such as:

  • We trusted someone who was not who they appeared to be (misplaced trust),
  • We were serving some outer intention happily, only to discover that it was false, harmful or inverted (usurped intent),
  • We fully embody the knowing to see how pain and torture of our fellow humans is occurring daily as normal occurrences (conditioning abuse),
  • We have spent our time and hard earned resources to play a prominent role in the Controller game that feeds into the decaying system of human enslavement (world slavery),
  • We see warped leaders taking advantage of broken people which is producing even more pain, trauma, and fragmentation setting up the dark entity feeding frenzy (NAA set up),
  • We can see blatant power abuses playing out that intentionally hurt others that are unaware that this agenda is occurring (reinforcing abusers and predators),
  • We interact with 3D people that have no meaning behind their words, people that do not follow up with what they said they would do (the empty promises and words of superficialism. materialism and bs),
  • We see those manipulating over and over again to gain a position of strategic advantage that is meaningless in the overall (control and power mongers),
  • We witness death, trauma or tragic events that appear to be senseless, reckless or idiotic (carelessness and no reverence for life).

Raw emotions like shock, sadness, confusion, sometimes momentary feelings of anger, can leave us feeling extremely depleted and extremely exhausted. This may rise into sensations of feeling broken, having a break down, even if its temporary. When emotions are intensely raw like this, they’re unprocessed, they’re fresh, you’re trying to understand how you feel. They’re like open wounds that have just been cut. And recent events have opened into the Yeshua Timeline and these histories and the wars against humanity are like an open wound. It cuts to the core. These events go into the most intense levels of the pain that is held within the truth of our fall, the truth of our gender split, the truth of what horrors have been carried out in the name of God and Christ. When you’re processing this kind of raw emotion, most of us know that you cannot hurry it along, you can’t fast-track it. This is something many of us may have a challenging time with because we have to get comfortable with internal discomfort. And many times in our mind, a part of us is seeking a quick solution in that we want to feel better immediately, we want to accept whatever it is that is causing discomfort and move on. We want to be able to rise above these seemingly impossible feelings, in terms of how do we resolve this in our heart?

And yet knowing that these are the awakening states of our consciousness experience and processing this raw emotion is deeply connected to the alchemy that shifts our consciousness into even higher elevation. In attempting to just be with it, attempting to accept it as it is now, attempting to take special care of our physical body as we move through it. When I am processing raw emotion, I attempt to do a body scan. I attempt to observe myself from head to toe and notice where inside my body that I’m feeling this pain or discomfort. I don’t need to do anything with the information that I may get from this body scan, I just allow it, I just take it in, I just surrender to it. I sit with it in the Observer, in pure awareness. Knowing that when we’re undergoing intense, raw, and challenging emotions during this time, we may be in a sensation of suspended animation. When processing deeply, one does their best to not make really important decisions while in this state because chances are the decisions may not be optimal. When our emotions are raw it can bring up momentary tidal waves, like a momentary wave rolling up into grief, possibly fear, sadness, and possibly moments of frustration or anger. So observing and looking at the oscillation of those emotions when we’re processing something very challenging, very raw, very much as if it is cutting us to the core, knowing it is what it is. All of us have to learn how to hold space for these difficult feelings inside ourselves and possibly others, to work through them the best way we know how in the moment, knowing that this is how we spiritually grow. This is how we evolve. As we shift through this particular story line and being willing to observe and know the truth, but as well, not becoming fixated upon it. Not allowing the storyline to gain control over our mind, placing our thoughts into any kind of dogma or fixated belief. We look at it through the observation perception of our inner compassionate witness, the pure awareness of source that resides in our heart. Then, we can shift and change this timeline that includes the story.

Currently, what I’m speaking of is the Yeshua-Mary Timeline as it surfacing in the New Aeon to reveal more truths to us. All that grew out of that timeline is in play today in controlling our world through the tyranny of lies, controlling the collective consciousness into consciousness traps and spawning the Negative Alien distortions. These distortions feed into the world religions, feeding the anti-Christ lodged in the Vatican, the power and control that has been spawned from this timeline in all of its imposter aspects and reversals. In order to change this storyline and the reversals generated from it in perpetration of continual lies and deceptions, we have to awaken and see it first.

We don’t want to be stuck in the past but we want to know the truth. Gaining awareness of larger truths happening in our world is a part of reclaiming, retrieving and honoring those that have gone before us. We have to see or know or be willing to observe what really happened, what is happening now. So when we’re working with this feeling of being emotionally raw, whether it’s recently, whether it’s in the future, knowing that we can manage these emotions through personal expression, allowing what we feel to surface and be witnessed. Certainly expressing our feelings, being honest about being cut to the core with deep pain in the realization and acknowledgment of what has happened in the Christ timelines, what has happened on the earth and the war being waged against humanity. Certainly it’s cathartic for many of us on the awakening path to know that you’re not isolated or alone in these feelings. As we express our feelings, we gain more clarity, there is a release of inner pressure in our body which helps us to process what we’re going through, to deeply discover what we are actually experiencing. Sometimes just doing trauma release through stretches or postures, can help us release these difficult emotions from the subconscious layers moving the content from inner to outer. I find in myself that I look to understand the sensation through insight and focusing my awareness. That may not help everyone immediately, but it is my most important tool. To deeply understand and track what the emotion, the rawness, the pain, the feeling, the sensation — what is it telling me, what is it about? When we can get to the tracking of the feeling and the source of it immediately, this reduces and resolves a huge percentage of the tension, pain or sensations that can lead up to even a full hundred percent emotional release. Through our insight, through our observation and awareness, through the open heart of compassionate witnessing, we can transform these emotions. And through the transformation of these raw emotions, we reclaim our spiritual power and it shifts us into the Light, illuminating that darkness, bringing a sensation of enlightenment, joy or even immediate happiness in the moment having released it. We transform these feelings when we experience them fully. And clearly this timeline is a very difficult one. And I can say I’ve been experiencing it fully and it’s not been pleasant. However, I know by bringing this from dark into light, from lies and deceptions into transparency and truth, we bring this into our present awareness and that emotion then has spiritual power for us. There is information, there is insight, there is knowledge, there is self-awareness, there is self-realization contained within it. And it is possible to process emotions and do this in a loving way towards ourselves, and towards others. Doing what we can to create that safe space for ourselves, taking care of our heart while we are processing extremely difficult raw emotions.

Observer and Present Moment Awareness. Get still, and create the conditions for a safe space to relax and breathe. Allow the raw feelings to surface and inquire on why they are there, ask for the lesson or skill that you need to achieve in mastering this emotion and its relationship to your higher purpose.

Manage Stress and Tension. Do not ignore tension or raw emotion when it arises. Take the time to intend to find out where the feelings are coming from and to resolve the built up tension. Find skills to manage your stress, and work these tools such as; meditation, breathing, music, massage, soaking in warm water, finding the best ways to relax your mind and body.

Compassionate Communication.

Our life is filled with the necessity of resolving an assortment of conflicts. Learn tips for improving Compassionate Communication skills in so that you can communicate much more effectively and easily, when addressing difficult situations and raw emotions. This includes one’s self talk, to speak lovingly and compassionately to ourselves.

Open Heartedness.

When we are open hearted, we are loving and kind, and we naturally grow empathy and compassion for ourselves and others. Remember that our heart is truly a sacred space, it is our direct connection with God Source. When we are in our heart, we can access truth much more easily, and retain our personal power even when navigating in difficult situations. True compassionate love naturally brings unity, which synthesizes polarities and genuinely resolves many conflicts much more easily.

May loving kindness overflow in your open heart,

Lisa

 

~via EnergeticSynthesis.com – Time Shift Blog – posted May 7, 2019

SELF-MASTERY FOR THE DAY ~ Eric Raines on Triggers

What are your triggers? What sets you off?

 

Breathe into that feeling, inhale in your smile, exhale out what does not feel good, including your reaction to the trigger.

 

Train yourself not to react negatively to the trigger, then put it into action the next time it appears.

 

Magic.

 

~Eric Raines

 

~via Unleashing Natural Humanity

NIKKI SAPP: “Seven Ways to Heal Negative Emotions”

“If God him/her/itself arrived at your doorstep for dinner, how would you treat him/her/it? Most likely with the utmost respect and reverence, right? So now you know how you should treat each emotion that arises as well.”

~Nikki Sapp

 

When you come to a point in your self-awareness process where you are beginning to become acutely aware of the emotional responses that are happening within you day-to-day, you may have found that there is a very fine line between showing support to yourself while you experience painful emotions and attaching yourself to the emotions as a sense of identity.

Walking this line, trying to find a balance between the two proves to be the difference between becoming a confident, healed and self-loving person, rooted in awareness rather than ego or being a victim of life, so intertwined with our painful emotions and the stories attached to them that they become extremely difficult to heal to completion.

While one should never use their idea of “being a positive person” as a means of trying to get rid of the natural emotions that are arising in them by methods of manipulation or judgment, there is undoubtedly approaches in dealing with painful or “negative emotions” that are in fact effective in helping them heal and transform all on their own, which in turn creates the space by which the blissful “positive” emotions that are our inherent nature can arise.

Seven Ways to Heal Negative Emotions

 

1. Acknowledge them

We cannot change that which we deny is even happening, which is why the very initial step to helping to create a space for healing for any emotion is to acknowledge it’s existence. You don’t even have to name the emotion if you are at a point where you can meditate and feel into the energy of the emotion, but nonetheless you must see that it is there.

Most emotions orbit repeatedly in our energy field because they have been feared, rejected or denied which only perpetuates them. When a painful emotion arises, that should tell you a deeper inquiry is required. Simply put, they are arising to be seen so that they can eventually be healed by you.

2. Honor Them

If we know that all stems from source (God/the divine/the omnipresent Universe) we should also know that even painful emotions fit into this category as well. Knowing this is a huge reason why honoring each emotion as God is hugely transformative.

If God him/her/itself arrived at your doorstep for dinner, how would you treat him/her/it? Most likely with the utmost respect and reverence, right?

So now you know how you should treat each emotion that arises as well. While it’s easy to treat joyful emotions with respect, it’s not as so with the emotions that feel painful in our body, but nonetheless that respect is required in assisting these emotions into a place where they can relax and dissolve into our awareness.

3. Do not blame them on anyone/ Do not own them as your own

Here is another approach that can be rather tricky, especially if you are new into self-awareness. Very often our emotions come as an onset after someone else’s behavior or words, which makes it “feel” like that person is to blame for the emotion. On one level of consciousness this may feel true, but those who are seasoned in self-awareness know something that takes this perspective into a higher truth.

That pearl of insight, is that people are coming into our lives to act as catalysts to bring up the very emotions that exist unhealed in our energy field. This means that rather than blaming them for causing the emotion (which completely disempowers us into needing them to change or apologize before we can heal), we can see them as messengers that provide unlikely clues into our own healing.

On the opposite end, we must also not become to attached to the idea of ownership from within either. We are the consciousness behind the emotion, so while there may be a limiting belief that is running a program in our subconscious mind that has been triggered by the action of another, it does not mean we ARE that emotion.

We are simply the awareness who has the power to heal that defunct programming and emotional block by observing it, feeling it, and respecting it — but not owning it.

4. See them as evidence of their opposite vibration

One helpful way to assist in actually having the courage to feel an emotion head on, is to know that emotions dissolve as a way to create space for their opposite to emerge. This means that all unworthiness — when actually faced and felt — is creating the healing space that makes way for worthiness to arise in it’s place.

Anytime you are able to pinpoint what emotion you are having, you can acknowledge it and also bless it with it’s opposite, or even just declare, “I accept that this fear of not having enough is the evidence that space is being created for abundance consciousness. In knowing this, I allow myself to feel this fear completely without judgment as it’s simply healing as I’m feeling it.”

5. Thank Them

As we come to know that no emotion arises as a mistake, we come to see some of the hidden gifts emotional responses contain. One is helping us identify where we are holding onto a subconscious belief or definition that is out of alignment with our highest truth.

All emotions stem from a belief, so no negative emotion can arise without there also being a belief behind it. Knowing this makes these emotions amazing gifts in helping us to re-write our subconscious beliefs!

By taking the time to sit with each emotion and appreciate it for the healing benefits and clues it contains, the emotions begin to soften and reveal their source — meaning the subconscious belief they stemmed from. As we re-write that belief we are able to heal that emotion.

6. Celebrate them

With many things on the spiritual journey it is the most ironic or unheard of approach that actually is effective. Probably the last thing you would ever think to do when a painful emotion arises is celebrate it’s arrival– which is why this approach is also hugely transformational.

Treat it like you truly cherish it’s arrival and are so humbled to have it’s presence and the wisdom it holds in your energy field. Watch how quickly you are able to detach from negativity when you do the one thing that you would have never thought to, which is actually celebrate it’s existence instead of judging or resisting it.

7. Welcome them back home into the light

Imagine your open heart as a doorway into the light for each emotion. As you open your heart and allow yourself to feel the energetic signature of each emotion, what you are actually doing is letting that emotion be welcomed into your heart space, which leads to the light that you are. The light is where all emotions go to heaven so to speak.

You may have heard the word alchemy in relation to the spiritual journey and this approach is exactly what that word means. Alchemists use the light of their true nature to be avenue by which painful emotions are dissolved into space — by simply feeling them to completion and welcoming them into their heart space.

It is important to note that it is most likely that you will need to use more than one or a combination of a few different approaches with each emotion. Nonetheless, it’s also important to remember to honor your humanity in all of this.

It’s often easy to see ourselves spiritual robots here to use our techniques to get rid of all that “negative energy” we don’t want to deal with, but without also honoring the part of us that innocently feels these emotions from a human place, we become the manipulators of our emotions vs. the safe place they long for to return home.

 

~via FractalEnlightenment.com